I woke up late, burned my toast and spilled milk on the living room couch. I looked outside and grimaced at the ugly brown mess of snow, slush and ice. I didn’t even have boots.
A seven-minute walk to work always felt like an hour. I forgot my mittens, hat and scarf on the heating vent, so I shoved my hands deep into my thin coat pockets and tried to dodge puddles of melted ice. At the four-way intersection, Tony, the crossing guard, motioned me to stop but I continued to walk. The driver of a shiny red BMW swerved to miss me as his tires screeched and splashed me with a cold blast of dirty snow. The driver raised his fists out the window and shouted, “Watch where you’re going you stupid kid!” I stood frozen in the middle of the street. Dirty, slushy gray ice water drenched my coat and my frizzy limp hair hung like a mop.
The sign for Cosmetic and Family Dentistry came into view. As a grade twelve co-op student, I divided my days between school and work. On my first day, Joyce, the Dental Assistant, patiently showed me how to sterilize the instruments and explained the difference between the two suction tips: The thin blue one suctioned blood and saliva. The thick white suction vacuumed big particles. Joyce told a lot of funny stories. At the age of fourteen, she stuck the white suction tip against her neck until she got a huge red mark. For the rest of the week she passed it off as her first unofficial hickey. Three months into my placement, I assisted Dr. Woo with fillings, extracting wisdom teeth, cleanings and fitting porcelain veneers.
I trudged into the dental office and felt water ooze into my shoes. I walked to the back lab, hung my coat and spotted Joyce. “Sorry I’m late, Joyce, I’ve been having a horrible morn−”
Joyce shoved a dental tray and a bottle of multi-colored endocrine needles into my hands. “We’ve got a really busy morning. Dr. Woo is starting the root canal for Mr. Moroni in Operatory 2. You’re assisting.” She rushed off with a stack of x-rays in her hands.

I lumbered through the narrow hallway into Operatory 2 while my wet sneakers squeaked against the white tile.
“Thanks for joining us,” Dr. Woo greeted me.
“I’m sorry, I had the worst morning you―”
Dr. Woo broke in, introduced me as a co-op student while he pointed to the patient. Mr. Moroni’s blue eyes pierced me as he squinted and studied me. “Humph. I don’t want anyone who’s inexperienced working on me, Dr. Woo.” The corners of his mouth plunged down. Who are you calling inexperienced, you old grump?
Dr. Woo laughed. “Don’t worry. She’s great. I’ll go grab your file and then we’ll get started.” He left.
Mr. Moroni continued to frown. A cell phone rang. He shuffled in his pocket, drew his right hand out from under the gown and flipped a tiny black phone open. “Hi honey,” he said loudly. “Yeah, I’m at the dental office…” He lowered his voice, but I still heard him. “They’ve got some inexperienced student working on me. She has no idea what she’s doing.” I ripped the seal off the instrument package and dumped the contents on the tray. He spun around at the noise. I gritted my teeth and plastered a smile on.
Dr. Woo returned with a brown file folder. We both pulled on our beige latex gloves. Dr. Woo flipped on the television situated on the ceiling, above Mr. Moroni’s head.
Mr. Moroni settled back to watch Days of Our Lives. I grabbed four cotton rolls and jammed them into Mr. Moroni’s mouth. He murmured, so I removed them. He twisted his eyebrows together and barked: “Don’t put too many of those in my mouth. I have trouble breathing.”
“Okay, I’ll keep that in mind,” I said and pushed two into his mouth.
I passed Dr. Woo the small drill piece. I glanced up at the TV. Sami cried because she just found out that her boyfriend, Austin, spent the night with her sister Carrie.
Dr. Woo returned the drill piece, rose from his chair and stripped his gloves
off. “Okay. We’ll let that sit for awhile. I have to check on my other patient so I’ll be back in a few minutes.” He patted Mr. Moroni’s shoulder and looked at me. “Just keep suctioning and make sure he’s feeling comfortable.” I nodded.
I leaned over my chair, peered at Mr. Moroni and asked, “Are you feeling okay?”
He ignored me and continued to watch the TV. Sami confronted a remorseful Austin.
I swiveled in my chair, and stopped when I spotted my face in the mirror above the sink. A sullen, miserable and gloomy face stared back at me. My hair looked matted and damp. My blue scrubs seemed wrinkled and faded.
A shiny silver belt hung on the side of the dental chair. I glanced at Mr. Moroni’s covered legs. Dr. Woo used the belt to lock a patient’s legs when he performed important surgery. “Otherwise they squirm and fidget,” he would say.
Mr. Moroni fixed his eyes above. Austin pleaded with Sami to accept their failed relationship but Sami’s eyes darted violently.
I bent down, tilted forward, grabbed the belt and clasped it. Mr. Moroni didn’t flinch.
I snatched cotton rolls from the tray and loomed over Mr. Moroni’s face until he stared back at me. I smiled sweetly and rammed cotton rolls into his mouth. He grunted loudly.
“Are you trying to say something?” I asked. My voice sounded light and soft. I jutted my head upwards and saw Sami wave a kitchen knife in Austin’s face.
I clutched the white suction tip and shoved it against Mr. Moroni’s tongue. I gripped the blue suction with my right hand and wedged it down his throat. I increased the pressure until Mr. Moroni’s face turned red. His eyes watered and veins protruded from his forehead. He squirmed in his chair but couldn’t move his arms from under the gown. I forced the suction further down and watched him struggle. Mr. Moroni’s skin turned blue and cold while his head lolled to one side. I pressed two fingers against his neck. Satisfied, I placed the suctions neatly back on their holders and bounced off my chair. I peeled off my gloves, dropped them in the wastebasket and washed my hands at the sink. I heard a male scream and looked at Mr. Moroni’s drooping, silent body. Way to go Sami! I giggled.
I stepped out of the operatory room and strolled past Joyce at reception. “Hey, I’m going out for lunch. See you later.”
Joyce looked up from her work, surprised. “Mr. Moroni’s root canal is done?”
“Oh yes,” I smiled before I stepped out. “Mr. Moroni is all finished.”